I asked for water
More water in my life
I dreamt of far off oceans rolling tides into my mind
Then I hoped to one day read a river like I could read my own emotions
Wanting and watching those boats who could slip and wriggle through the current
Diving, twisting, averting, rushing in
to join the thing that is bigger than themselves
The water that covers our entire planet
The water that sustains us all
The tides and flows that suck us all toward them and into global sync with
everything in the universe.
Into the Tao
That’s all I wanted after all.
To be in the Tao
To be in the flow of life
Instead of always throwing elbows and knees and hips and mouth around
All herky-jerky and out of sync.
Then I started moving from my center
Answering to the pull of my gut, of my solar plexus.
Feeling myself give way to the tug on my breast-bone as clearly as I once took the hand of my mother, my first love, my many lovers, and friends gone by,
But this time feeling the pull of the entire Universe inviting me to be MYSELF.
And then it all started to happen
After all those years of reading
I rode the river, rapids and all
And I balanced through each channel and challenge
I surfed the ocean, feeling rooted to the earth and flying in air, all at the same time
And I paddled lakes deep and inky blue
I watched their waters roll unending
And then I danced, because that is what I always knew
Hard, uncontrolled spinning, jumping, thrashing
And when all the music and chaos stopped
I lay down
And I felt the water inside me
And I loved my life.