As I watch my children grow up, I know that my mom’s presence in my life did not end with her death.

Hold and release. Hold the memory close; let go again and again and again.

It was the same lesson for our country. In the coming months and years, we’d use our hands to help, to hug, to rebuild, and to honor.  

To my son, it is simply a game of whack-a-mole, of target practice. He does not yet know what death is.

I asked myself: what could others be feeling if they were to lose me?

But there's the other side too. There are people who will jump in after you. There are others who will grab your hand and pull.

I am writing you today so that if, for whatever God forbidden reason, I am not here on earth with you when you have your first child, you will have something to hopefully provide you with some sort of closeness to me.