I know nothing of the fear of waiting. Nothing of the relief or devastation.
I know nothing of the pain that caused this, and nothing of the pain it caused.
I know nothing of the noise. Or of worse, the silence.
All I know is this: I grieve because safe isn't. Innocent isn't. Not today.
I sat with my sons and told them what I could, of something I don't understand.
I listen to them snore now, still unwilling to get very far from them.
I know nothing of what to say to the moms who are breaking open tonight. Except this, we will hold you. We are in this together. I hold you now on this terrible day and all the tomorrows to come.
Grace for the rage.
Faith for the fear.
Love for the impossible.
I can take nothing away. So I will stand beside you. And love.
This was originally published on www.mamalode.com on December 14, 2012.