“Believe me Mom,
I’m not a little girl anymore”
Says my baby
With the curls in her hair
How can that be?
Yesterday you were a neat little bundle
In the crook of my arm
You’re growing up now
Making me proud
But every step along the way
Breaks my heart
I’m still getting used to being a mom
Of a footie-pajamas wearing little girl
My heart cracks with new love for you
Each and every day
But my mind is just not ready
For you to be this twiggy
Stretched out little thing
With a big vocabulary
Big dreams, big talents
On the tip of a cliff
Soon to soar on
Today everyone you love is family
Contained in a bubble
Your friends are all relations
But that won’t be true tomorrow
You are the greatest thing
I’ve ever done
I used to fear motherhood would eat my life
And it has
But in the best possible way
You’ve burned my extraneous blurry edges
Down to clean metal
Just the essentials
Made a woman out of me
Made a mother out of me
Long ago I got in the habit
Of underreacting
Playing it cool
Erasing the telltale signs of too big feelings
Always wary of being caught
Feeling too much
But with you I am free
To not give a damn
I live and die by you
And that loves makes me cry at the smallest of things
Unashamed, even brave
My soft spot for you is as big as the ocean
A badge of honor
Believe me daughter
You will always be my baby